my self

*Use what talents you possess–for the woods would be silent if no birds sang but the best.*
-Henry Jackson van Dyke.

i found this quote here, along with this on time post by yarn harlot. i do this all the time. i may not be the best seamstress, crocheter (is that a word??? sounds funny), knitter, embroiderer (another funny one), beader…. artist…. but dag nab it, i enjoy it and i can design and put things together and i spend MASS amounts of time doing it! and in my dream of dreams, i make my living at it. i really pretend not to value my self, my talents for vanity sake. i dont want to appear to forward or brash. i want to appear humble and loving. i undervalue myself for appearances. for really and truly, i DO value my talents or i wouldnt spend so much time doing them! i love the feeling of accomplishment after i finish a project or when i figure something out i previously thought there was no chance in hell of me ever learning. and i value other artists accomplishments. i marvel at their creations. so with all my heart, i intend to stay with this knowledge and leave all the pretense and pretending behind.

i have decided to quit *the job*. so many things transpired there. it has been hell. i dont think i have ever been treated so badly in a place of work in my life. i was threatened 2 days ago with termination and my name taken off the schedule for the next week, because i did not have $100 dollars to get my work cards (in Nevada you have to get work cards to be able to work here… crazy). i then realized that i have been staying out of loyalty… loyalty to my sister who also works for the same company and loyalty to the obligation i made when i said i would take the job. but there is no loyalty in this world of corporations. i am just a little ant to them… to be threatened, controlled by fear. so this perceived ant says *bye-bye*.

i visited this site yesterday that i check it out every so often. this woman is brillant. her clothes and accessories are WOW. i think her site is one of the first sites i visited that helped me decided that being a clothing artist is what i want to do.

i also found this quote while aimlessly surfing the net yesterday… love it.

*i fell awake in my dizziness. a mind game.* ~ posted by:tickle_my_elmo

Peas out yall…